Excuses...

So one of the preseason tasks for 12WBT was to list our excuses...so here is what I came up with:


Excuses:

-its easier to not exercise and eat bad food
-i want to be normal like others and not think about what I should or shouldnt eat
-im too tired
-im too busy
-my work schedule doesnt allow me to get to the gym
-my gym is closed today
-my gym is on restrictive hours on the weekend
-i deserve a break
-i have too much other stuff to do
-i have a injury
-i deserve a treat
-one day off wont kill me
-im better to eat this now since i have got a craving otherwise the craving will get worse
-this is too much effort
-its too hot/cold
-id prefer to stay home in case the phone rings/someone messages me online
-i dont want to be a spectacle by exercising in public


My biggest excuse is truly "its easier to be fat" i know this isnt true. Losing weight is hard and being stuck in a cardiac ward with a heart attack is hard so its a case of picking your hard. But thruout my whole life anything that has got hard i have given up on. Whether dance competitions as a kid...finishing year 12...getting my drivers licence (which i still dont have) i am the queen of giving up when it gets too hard. I have been losing weight for 4 years. Started at 170.9 kilos...this morning 102.8 kilos...and this is the first time I have truly stuck to something. But the whole "being unhealthy is easier" is always in the back of my mind. This is the first time I have ever gone thru with something...but at the same time i struggle to think i am a success at it. Having lost so much weight with still so much to go...there are others expectations. And I think a huge part of me is scared to say "i rock i will succeed" its kinda like i think if i do that then I will jinx myself. The other thing is I use my fat as a excuse. If someone doesnt like me...or i dont get some job....or dont get a date or whatever...its easy to think "oh its cos i am fat", if I lose the weight and im in the healthy weight zone and someone doesn't like me then I will have to confront that - maybe its my personality, maybe I am not pretty enuff, intelligent enough the list goes on and on. So not only do I have excuses for why I am overweight...I also use my fat as an excuse.


Tonite at the gym my dietician talked to me at the foxy challenge...and told me "you have a real good chance to win...last years winner only lost 5 kilos" wow I mite get competitive and really throw myself into the challenge....not that i really expect to win as people who work in the city can obviously get to the gym a lot more then me...but still its nice to think someone has that level of confidence in me! :)