I am actually feeling a lot better tonite about everything. i took the progress photos (refer to previous post) and when i took them i nearly didnt post the side view. I thought gawd look at that ass and stomach. Anyway i did post them and a friend on FB commented on my skinny wrists....i didnt really end up with huge wrists at my highest weight....but i was comparing the wrists between the photos then looked at the boobs...now i knew i had lost close to 30 cms in the last two years from my boobs..but those side on pics make it so obvious! Dont worry i still have ample boobage....but the difference in the photos is amazing (to me anyway). Then i got thinking about my stomach.....and its never going to be flat....whether i get to 76 kilos or not its NEVER going to be flat and thats due to excess skin. The fact of the matter is its highly likely i will end up with 5-10 kilos of excess skin. Thats the reality of it...I cant imagine the excess skin would weigh less then 5 kilos. So maybe its not so much the "pockets of fat" as the doc suggested but the fact of the matter is i will have excess skin (no huge secret there) So i think my thinking just needs a adjustment...initially as my next big goal i just wanna focus on 86 kilos. If I get to 81-86 kilos...its not necessarily that i havent got to a healthy weight range....I got to a healthy weight range but i bought 5-10 kilos of excess skin with me. My insides will still be healthy...i will still have muscle and hopefully relatively toned....just under clothes i may have excess skin. Really when I look at the photos today...im not just a slightly older person, and smaller person....i am actually more toned...not perfectly (and prolly never will be) but even i can tell by looking at those photos they are of a person who is toner and stronger. So the foxy challenge starts monday....YAY....a fresh start with fresh goals...if i get under 95 kilos by the end of may ill be rapt....but regardless i will be happy :) I have set a goal for "points" in the challenge this week to get being 525 points..I am only at the gym 4 days next week with going to sydney but as long as i attend all the classes and do the 2 weekly challenges I will hit those points. I really cant see me having a buckleys chance of winning the challenge within our gym....but if i set a goal each week of number of points i wanna hit and then do it...then i can only gain from it in the long run.
Food wise things are better yesterday and today...im up a lil bit on calories today (just under 1700 cals) but that was just some cheese (and i think i over estimated anyway) tonite would have been easy to go get a yiros (kebab) like i often do saturday nites but instead am having a home made hamburger.
As to the foot/leg/knee/hip debacle..i cant change that....and all we are really doing is preventing me from a hip or knee replacement in the future....sure its a pain...and i really wish this wasnt the case....but it was prolly a fluke that the physio decided to assess my running...and this will hopefully improve and in time can get back to running and be in a better position for it. Yep i didnt wanna play the "weight loss/healthy lifestyle" game there for a bit....but im ready to pick up my toys and keep playing now!
Oh and got my new ipod...is awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeeee especially for diarising classes and PT sessions etc....love it!!